It's Okay.

To you who are reading this post, I would like to tell you something.

Please do always remember that it is okay to have flaws and is okay to be imperfect. 

If you are perfect and if life left no lessons to be fulfiled, what is left for us to gain?

Throughout all these years, people keep on judging me for being cold, emotionless, arrogant and unapproachable...But, what they truly know about me?

I know that I am apart of the reasons for why relationships that others shared with me did not last for long. I blame myself for all my failed friendships and for the people who turned their backs on me.

For years, I have been practising self beating, thinking that I'm not a worthy person to be loved and to be kept beside. I was unhappy. But, for now, in the age of 22, I began to realise that others did not deceive me but I was not being kind to myself. I was unconfident and had a lot of self doubts. I regretted for being harsh on myself.

I used to think that if I treated people around me wholeheartedly, they will love me back. I was wrong. I was naive, but I did not blame them. I can't force people to value me. That's their choice and that does not says that I am not good enough.

If you are important, the one who loves you might not tell you how much you mean to him or her, but he or she will find ways to let you know. He or she will make you feel secure and will not allow you to feel that you are not good enough.

It is funny to see that how people tell you that they love you, appreciate you and thankful for the things you did, but in real life, they did not take any actions to show that they value you. Words are meaningless if actions were not taken. I can tell you that you are my world, but I treated you like someone less important, so, are my words still trustable?

Walk away if you feel that you are not needed. To love, does not signifies that you should lose self respect and forget about self worth. Be kind to yourself and be happy. Once you are good in loving yourself, then only you can love things and people around you sincerely.

 I am reserved and not good in opening myself up to others.

But, I have a big heart and I am caring. 

I love myself even though I have flaws.

I am positive even though I have been through bad times.

If you really love me, Take Me As I Am.

If you can't, the door is always there. 

:)