Bloom Magazine

Bloom Magazine: Her Gurus In Pages,
Transforming Women's Life Better Than Before.

I have been studying media studies for three years and throughout my whole journey, photojournalism and magazine publishing are two of my favourite subjects. I had a lot of fun doing assignments for both subjects, but coming out with a magazine will definitely be the most memorable work I have ever done with my teammates.

We came up with the idea of calling our magazine "Bloom" because we hope that this magazine will be able to inspire female readers. As you can imagine, a flower grows and blooms from a seed. The whole blooming process of a flower does not only represents the natural process of life, but at the same time, telling us that it is important to embrace change. Change can be positive and we can always transform ourselves into someone better.

After confirming the title of our magazine, we identified our targeted readers and then came up with the article contents. Although our magazine was supposed to be a lifestyle magazine, we ended up writing more than half of the articles, related to makeup, skincare products, trendy clothes and beauty apps. This happened because most of us were too excited to share our knowledge on beauty and fashion. Haha. Overall, there were only three articles related to lifestyle, so our magazine still considered as a lifestyle magazine... Right? Right? Right? We did included three inspiring profile articles, so that our readers will learn some valuable lessons through those articles.

The funniest part throughout the whole process in coming out this magazine was photo shooting for the cover. Having no shame at all, Haha, I was the cover girl. I never thought that I would become the magazine's cover girl because my team members did not informed me anything that time.

I was meeting with my thesis advisor that time. Suddenly, I received a text from Husna, asking me to come to the parking lot. By the time I reached there, they were all smiling at me (Evil Intentions Alert). They briefed me about the details and told me that they have chosen me to become the magazine's cover girl. Then, I was asked to lie down on the bonnet of an abandoned car. Haha. Just look at the photos of "behind the scene". The whole shooting process was funny tho'.

After we got ourselves the cover, we started to focus on completing the articles and business plan. After we got all of our articles done, we were worried that we would not be able to come out with the mockup on time. However, thanks to our talented designers, Shafira and Nazzierra, they managed to come out with the layout design on time. You see, as a real monthly issue needs at least 2 and half month to be ready for publish, we managed to come out with the whole thing in less than 2 months.

I am so proud of my team. Thank you everyone for being talented in your own way. It was a right choice from the start to have teaming up with each and everyone of you.

Bloom Magazine is Successfully Produced.

It's Okay.

To you who are reading this post, I would like to tell you something.

Please do always remember that it is okay to have flaws and is okay to be imperfect. 

If you are perfect and if life left no lessons to be fulfiled, what is left for us to gain?

Throughout all these years, people keep on judging me for being cold, emotionless, arrogant and unapproachable...But, what they truly know about me?

I know that I am apart of the reasons for why relationships that others shared with me did not last for long. I blame myself for all my failed friendships and for the people who turned their backs on me.

For years, I have been practising self beating, thinking that I'm not a worthy person to be loved and to be kept beside. I was unhappy. But, for now, in the age of 22, I began to realise that others did not deceive me but I was not being kind to myself. I was unconfident and had a lot of self doubts. I regretted for being harsh on myself.

I used to think that if I treated people around me wholeheartedly, they will love me back. I was wrong. I was naive, but I did not blame them. I can't force people to value me. That's their choice and that does not says that I am not good enough.

If you are important, the one who loves you might not tell you how much you mean to him or her, but he or she will find ways to let you know. He or she will make you feel secure and will not allow you to feel that you are not good enough.

It is funny to see that how people tell you that they love you, appreciate you and thankful for the things you did, but in real life, they did not take any actions to show that they value you. Words are meaningless if actions were not taken. I can tell you that you are my world, but I treated you like someone less important, so, are my words still trustable?

Walk away if you feel that you are not needed. To love, does not signifies that you should lose self respect and forget about self worth. Be kind to yourself and be happy. Once you are good in loving yourself, then only you can love things and people around you sincerely.

 I am reserved and not good in opening myself up to others.

But, I have a big heart and I am caring. 

I love myself even though I have flaws.

I am positive even though I have been through bad times.

If you really love me, Take Me As I Am.

If you can't, the door is always there. 

:)

Self-Centred

People around me always advice me to be more selfish, make myself my own priority and always put myself first before others. This is because if I don't take a good care of myself, ain't no body is going to do that for me. 

Selfish? It's a part of human nature. Everybody is selfish. 

However, being selfish, doesn't mean that you have to be self-centred. 

So, how to differentiate selfish and self-centred? 

In my point of view, being selfish is by taking care of ourselves and don't really mind about others.

However, being self-centred, is not just taking care of ourselves, don't bother about other people, instead exploiting them, make use of them and sacrifice them whenever they are no longer needed. 

Being self-centred is not learning on how to love others, but always expecting others to love us and help us to do things for the sake of our own convenience.

I have met a few self-centred people in my life and all of them own the same characteristics.

A self-centred person is someone who give a little, but always think that he or she has given others the whole world. This kind of person always feel unappreciated and extremely whiny. If he or she gave you an apple and you returned him or her hundred dollars, it will not be enough. 

A self-centred person always direct the blame towards another party. This kind of person never thought about having self reflections and always think himself or herself as the victim of every situation. Sometimes, he or she might even practice self pity and wonder why that there is no one to bear with his or her personality. He or she always demand attention and high tolerance from people around. The thing is, this world is about give and take. A heart will eventually grew tired if it loves too much and get nothing in return. Nobody likes to make a whole lot of effort just to please a person who never knows how to love back, but just know how to love himself or herself. 

"We often think that we see the world as it is, but in fact we see the world as we are." This is a quote which I would really like to send to all self-centred beings that I have came to know all my life. A self-centred person is often dramatic and likes to exaggerate things. 

Besides, a self-centred person is afraid to be left alone but luckily, this kind of person has a lot of egos, so he or she can still survive in any situation. A self-centred person knows how to manipulate and exploit people around because this kind of person knows well in how to save his or her own ass. Once he or she is done with you, you will be thrown away as you are no longer valuable and are no longer useful. A self-centred person possess good speaking skills and knows rhetoric well. He or she is often persuasive and knows well in finding the right time to let out the bait. 

A self-centred person seems to be dangerous, but in fact, he or she is not.

In order to defend yourself when you ever encounter with a self-centred person is by not being afraid to stand your own ground and be mentally prepared from all hurtful words and disrespectful treatments. 

A self-centred person only target on those who have low self-esteems and uses your own fears and your lack of self confidence to manipulate you. However, once you are bravely enough to fight back, he or she may not respect you fully, but at least, he or she will back off a little. 

Sometimes, even though, you don't feel like offending anyone or trying to keep everything in a harmonised state, still, when someone came in and threatened your confidence or even make you feel bad for defending yourself, don't be. If you are unable to defend yourself because you are afraid of things, then you will never be free from getting used by others. 

Be Brave, Trust Yourself and always Remember Who You Are. 

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Hey, Peeps!

I think that it has been a year since I last wrote on this blog.

My English became a bit rusty…Hence, pardon my rusty English.

University life is as busy as ever, a little bit hectic… I must say. 

However, I think… Being busy is better than being free. 

Cause' at least being busy, I will have lesser time paying attention on unnecessary things.

For this semester, I have been assigned as marketing director for Project KEBATIM and treasurer for MASSAC. For sponsorships, I have been pushing my committees like crazy and manage to find some sponsors within a month. I'm feeling grateful because most of them are well established companies. All of them are sponsors on benefit in kinds, but I'm still thankful. At least I have settled sponsorships on items and now,  I just need to focus on sponsorships in terms of monetary. 

For studies, I was a bit upset when SKR disapproved my application for extra credit hour. Worried that I couldn't finish my degree on time. However, after thinking through it…Maybe this is better for me. For this semester, there are so many things going on… So, I think it's better not to burden myself too much. 

Hmm, been a little bit emotional lately. 

I think this is all because of the side effects of being stressed out.

Losing myself little by little, I have tend to get upset easily by minor things.

Even over think a lot of things…

Or maybe I'm not confident enough with the decisions that I have made…

Too much self doubts, too many uncertainties…

It's time to stop being depress and start working hard on the right things. 

I have been complaining a lot lately too on my Insta Story. 

A little bit ashamed of myself for being negative. 

So, a new resolution for me is to stop complaining and try to love every experiences gained wholeheartedly. 

Oh Ya, and in my department, most of my juniors don't know who I am.

It's understandable as I'm a low profile person, but still, it is ridiculous for them not knowing me as the treasurer for MASSAC. This is because we have introduced all the high committees on our official Instagram account and also in our Annual Grand Meeting. So, my course mate told me to be more open up towards others and allow people to know me more. Hmm…Being too reserved is really a bad thing. I'm too reserved until my existence is not even noticeable. 

Even though I am not shining, it doesn't make me a person without potential.

Everyone has their own potential. 

I may have flaws but my imperfections are things that make me unique.

Even so, I still need to improve myself and become a better person.

I may be unnoticeable by now, but I won't stay this state forever.

My ideas may not be inspiring now, but it will lighten a picture someday.

No point feeling disappointed over things or situations, even though life doesn't go according to plan… 

Things will always improve and so do people.

Realise your own skills and sharpen them.

Realise your own weakness and correct them.

Hold on to your strength and be proud of it.

Change your perspective and practice positivity. 

Be Positive, Stay Happy :) 

Simply Positive

I just came to have some inspirations to write a blog post... It's about people that I've came to know along my journey in being a student...Time spent with classmates and friends...blah...blah...blah...

To be honest, study life is definitely fun. As a student, throughout my journey until so far,  I've met a bunch of awesome people. I do enjoy spending time with them and of course, I'm looking forward in creating more sweet and happy memories with them.  Well, if you manage to meet some good people, of course, you will also get the same chance in meeting some bad ones. They are not bad in heart, but they do have some problems with their personalities. I do understand and clearly know about the fact that everybody is different and it's important for you to know and be able to tolerate those differences. However, once someone took advantage on your tolerance and patience, I think, it's time for you to create distance.

I'm not the type of person who supports cold war and I do find that boycotting someone is a very childish thing to do, but somehow, it's the best option for you to make, in order to get rid of all the negative people who do you no good, but only know best in discouraging you.

In my study life, I've come to meet someone who is very negative and often like to compare with others. About comparing with others, sometimes, I also practice that too, but it's only to create more motivation for me to work harder. In her case is, she compares herself with others to create a whole lot of self pity-ness. She's a type of person with a very low self esteem. That's the reason why she like to talk bad about others and also tends to get jealous over a lot of tiny and unimportant things easily. Whenever she compares herself to others, due to her lack of self confidence, she will tend to wish ill on others. She's not the type who be happy on others' high achievements. Besides, she is a righteous person and also like to think that herself knows everything. I don't really mind about her acting like a" miss- know -it- all" because according to Quotes Gate, a wise person never knows all; only fools know everything.

The biggest problem with her is she likes to discourage others. If she thinks something is impossible and others like to give it a try, instead of supporting them, she discourages them by telling them that they won't be able to make it. When others are celebrating joy, she will ruin all the funs by saying unnecessary things. She's not being honest but extremely sarcastic. I knew that she has been through some unhappy stuffs during her young age, but that doesn't mean that she should build her own happiness on somebody else's unhappiness.  I don't mind about her talking bad about others and I don't mind about her complaining about every little thing, but I do mind about her being cynical.

You see, everybody has their own problems and things happen for a reason. Even though, there are some few bad chapters written in the story of your life, still, it doesn't mean that your story will have a bad ending. If you are not satisfied with your own life, never take out your grudge on others.
Nobody has the rights to make you feel bad and you certainly also don't have the rights to bring others down.

I, myself also been through a lot. I have a very unhappy childhood. I don't feel like talking about it because it's all in the past and I prefer to look forward. Some part of my life is imperfect, but it doesn't stop me from being positive. You see, if everything in life tends to be happy and perfect, no sadness, then what will be the life lesson for you to learn? How can you improve yourself to be someone better? Imagine on a piece of blank paper, instead of filling it with colours, you also need to draw some lines to create a full beautiful picture.

Scars and wounds shouldn't ruin us but should make us stronger, tougher and also more human. Remember that.

No matter what happens, bad or good, love all your experiences.
No matter in what situation, never practice self pity.
If you can't stay strong, at least train yourself to be brave.

Smile and always let go of things.

Simply Positive.

My 21st Birthday

Today, 20th January 2016 is my 21st Birthday.

I've decided to write this blog post because I'm very grateful for the things that my family and friends have done for me.

 

Firstly, I would like to thank my mom for buying me a very expensive gift.

 

 

 

We Chinese have a belief that when someone turns 21 years old, his or her parents should buy him or her a gold key. Cause' the key suppose to symbolise the key to freedom and also to unlock the path to his or her future.

When I was young, I have always wanted a gold key because I always believe that this key can really unlock doors to my future. So, when mom bought me this gold key, she has fulfilled one of my childhood dreams.

 

 
Secondly, I would like to thank my siblings for buying me gifts and also celebrated my Birthday. Cause' I didn't really expect any celebration. So, I'm very grateful and thankful for everything.

 

 

Thirdly, I would also like to thank my best friends for being the earliest ones who sent me Birthday wishes. Their messages were very long, very sentimental and of course, heart warming. 

I never really think that I, myself as a very good friend because I didn't really contact any of my friends that often. I am also a very impatient girl with a very bad temper. Apparently, my friends didn't mind about my flaws but still love me for who I am. I don't really have a lot of friends but luckily, I'm still blessed for everyone of them is very true and sincere to me.

 

 

Fourthly, I would like to thank my buddies who went to Thailand and still remember my Birthday. They even took a video and sent to me just to make sure that I get my Birthday wishes. I would also like to thank Siew Wen for calling me all the way from Singapore, just to wish me.

 

 

Lastly, I would also like to give thanks to all of my awesome media studies' course mates for sending me wishes.

Thank you, all my KEBATIM's teammates, college mates, Facebook friends and others for all the kind wishes too.

 

Of course, there are certain people who don't understand why am I so happy about all those wishes. Well, to me, none of them have the responsibility to send me wishes. I'm not trying to be negative or dramatic, but I'm certainly not the type of person who expect anything from anyone.  I always believe that "No Expectations, No Disappointments." What I am trying to imply is others treat you well is because of courtesies and not because of responsibilities, and for someone to treat you with courtesy is really must based on that person himself or herself. It's something optional and not subjective.

 

To have someone who always remember me is always a great blessing.

And I have more than just a person who always  there to care for me.

I have family and a bunch of friends who always think of  me.

So, how can I ask for more?

 

I can only say that...

My 21st Birthday is  wonderful because of all the loves that I have received.

 

Sincerely, thanks to each and everyone of you. <3